I detect negative energy very well- emitting from me, directed towards me and when it’s all around me, I call it “vibes”. I get this feeling in the mid regions right where my rib cage ends!
Some other feelings are like it too, anxiety, loneliness, fear --bone deep, silent kind! But when this feeling stays and knots into a dull sort of pain, that’s when I know how much I distrust it and how much I am in awe of it.
But amidst all the eloquent woes of mine, I have tried to keep myself surrounded by happy things, Happy couples, close friends and of course,Pree- if there is a goddess of positivism, she has been reincarnated.
But lately I have been waking up not feeling myself. Everyday has been a routine of:
Gritty eyes-check!! headache-check!!...lazy pissed off attitude-check!!
..the work, the deadlines, the non cooperating team members…just don’t add to any positive feeling.
And when negativism enters my life, it pervades its existence to all the other aspects of my life. I don’t want it too, but it just happens.
It’s funny what all you can do without trying at all. All the spiritual books in the world, all those little prayers in the night, don’t get rid of the evil. Sleep is just a temporary relief.
Then I tried, “selective perception” and *Blink* ….the unhappy me went on a holiday and in came the school girlish attitude. – giggly , incredibly uncontrolled!!
Little things made me happy - new shoes, new clothes, “shudder” pink outlandishly cute bottle, and cartoons ( so glad to see popeye was back in english)
Then of course there were the meaningful things - Lunch with mom, conversations with an old friend, demented laughter spree on bizarre self portraits, bike ride with a friend, phone calls from a distance...just to say what’s up…and... little gestures from the unexpected ones.
Life ain’t that bad after all.
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dudette, u hv earned a new fan... awesome posts :) though i wud say ur thoughts r a bit beyond my comprehension.. u express yourself very candidly..and thats what hits me more than anything :)
shobzzzzzzz....good too see yaa
glad u like the posts... I purposely keep my thoughts a lil discrete....otherwise its no fun rite!??
nice :)
Relate to the bit of coming back after a holiday with an toatlly mad kid outlook on life.. almost always helps..
..yea the lil grily attitude is always a laugh...
read your blogs too...love all the moods...
Selective perception does work...cause its all about how we chose to look at life....
Thorns are meant to prick but you can perceive them as the ones protecting the flower and enhancing its beauty..
Its all boils down to your attitude...
Trust me dear, there are like a thousand things to put you down, but then a lakh things to make you smile. Unfortunately most of us become the 'all-matured' and concentrate on the sad things. Keep in touch with the child in you and you shall smile, always!
What a post!! Loved it!
...heyy..thanks... i like the "all matured" observation, its sad but true...being mature suddenly means looking at the more grim things in life.... and then portraying how “grown-up” you are since you are dealing with it and smiling through it… sigh!
Demented photographs....aah..now that sounds familiar...;)..good one!!!!
Hi. i was goin thru a coupla blogs when amit asked me to go thru urs. I must say, they are absolutely fabulous. The depth of ur expression is amazing. can't help but wonder whats goin on in the vast expanses of ur mind.
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oops sorry, I thought you were someone else,
Always good to have a new visitor,
welcome and do blog!
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