Faith...

One of the things I have often wondered about is - faith . Whether it is really a strength or is it a weakness, whether believing in a higher power who guides you through life is a matter of low self-esteem or there really is something to back it up...

I wonder about this because I believe I have real faith... I'm not fatalistic, but I have faith in the saying that whatever happens…happens for the good..,

I have faith in my God...and no, he's not performed 'miracles' like making things appear from thin air or making things disappear in one touch.. but I have faith, and tremendous amount of it,... and I have faith that whatever is happening in my life, I can't see the broader picture, but there is someone up there (or anywhere for that matter) who can.. he sees the bigger picture... and so the things that you can't explain, the things that you can't control, you just leave it up to faith.. You do what you have to do, and leave the rest upto your faith and believe that things will get better...

I have faith to believe that the choices that I make at every step of my life have a reason behind it…even though I won’t ever be able to tell.

I have faith, in the people I trust … and I have faith in the relationships I make.

I have nothing to prove that faith, except that I believe in it.. and have believed in it for so long that I can't remember life without it…

So then I ponder, is it my weakness that I want to double-check my life constantly with some 'higher power', or is it that such a higher power really exists.. I'm not advocating that someone on earth is God, I'm not propounding that one should blindly believe in what is not apparent... but then when one is educated, has a fairly reasonable 'thinking mind' and then one believes in concepts such as faith, God, guidance - then it can't just be lack of faith in oneself... afterall, 'God' isn't a person who you can talk to, God is an experience.. you experience the presence of a higher power through your life all the time… if only, you watch close enough... everything we do, every choice we make ,forms a pattern…

I'm wondering about all this because there are times in my life when I sit back and wonder about why certain things happened, why my life has been so tough and yet there has always been a silver-lining with every problem that came up. why something that seemed a distant dream, then became a reality.. and my faith is reinforced yet again....


But, I still have nothing to prove it.. .